life without her - never the same

2010-07-08T23:44:00.002+08:00

Toy Story 3 with Amos at Marina Square. Usually I don't watch movie with him but he's a BIG fan of Toy Story so it's my duty as a gf to accompany him? HAHA!! For your info, this is the 4th movie we watch together! =.=

I wasn't very happy today. He screwed everything up before the movie. But he fixed it after that.

The movie was awsome can. I cried at the last part and felt paisae because I thought I'm the only one but NO! The guy beside me pass tissues to his gf and I turn and saw AMOS CRYING TOO!! AHAHA!!

After movie, Amos kept the Toy Story cup and popcorn box. See, a fan a fan a fan...

Had Carl's Jr for dinner, Amos bored me with his work stuff. He got his profit sharing in the afternoon, too excited to calm down. He asked if I want to get my camera now because he got the money to buy. I was like "Since went I wanted one".. HAHA!~

HOME SWEET HOME~

2010-07-03T22:12:00.001+08:00

Had lunch at Ikea Tampines with Amos.

He wanna get a table for his room. His room so small yet so many furniture, I wonder how he fit everything in. He bought his table and I "TONGBANG" some bowls for my family which turn out look like flower pot because they are in brown. =.=

Took cab home because the table was fucking heavy. And the taxi uncle talks all the way from Ikea to Sengkang.. BEST LUHH! But he was friendly, not irritating. =) Waited for Amos to unload the table at his house and then to mine.

Mummy cooked Amos fav braised pork and he went gaga about it. HAHA! PIG!

2010-07-02T11:25:00.001+08:00

YAY! Another drama accomplish!!

Somehow this one isn't very nice. It's a China drama, what to expect? I watch because I am BIG fan of Hana Yori Dango. But the storyline is so different here. I don't like... ..

Still watchable, maybe a 2.6/5?

=/

2010-06-30T15:30:00.001+08:00

BOSS is giving me a pay increment from next month onwards..

WOOT!~

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

2010-06-27T18:15:00.000+08:00

I was at orchard with Helicia and Miao yesterday. They buy buy buy, I see see see. Haha.. Manage to buy some stuff though. As usual, shopping with the girls is a killer. I was half dead when I reach home.

Today is the last weekend for GSS so I randomly ask Amos if he's free to shop with me. To my surprise, He said OKAY worr! So we met at 10 30AM because I want to go early and home early, it's a Sunday you see. Before preMonday blues comes, I need to be at my comfort zone.

We went Suntec, settle ourselves at Aston for brunch. Food was NICE!

After meal, we started our shopping. Didn't bought anything in the end, Super siann. Had Yumi Yorgurt to cheer myself a little.

Went down to Marina Square and continue to shop, still nothing for me. It's 3 something and we were thinking to make our way home and Amos is having a work meeting with his staffs in the evening which he canceled after I nag and nag and nag.. ..

Took circle line to DB and I was thinking since still early, lets make a stop at PS.. I got some cats treats from PLC and we went grocery shopping at carrafour and snacks at Daiso.

Home at 5PM!!Amos is super hungry NOW! Waiting for Ma to cut the chickens we bought for dinner..

2010-06-21T11:41:00.004+08:00

Finally finish this Korean drama today! It's called "Personal Preference". Love it to the max! It's more of a down to earth adulthood love compare to those kiddish romance that won't happen in real life.

I really feel like having a gay BFF like now? Really! I'm not kidding okay! It will be GOOD to have one.. Dear God, can I? >.<

2 thumbs up! (Y)(Y)

<3<3<3<3

2010-06-20T12:05:00.002+08:00

was at Jo's house for a sleepover last night, shuzhi brought her baby Macbook along and we are having tons of fun with the photo booth. They find me weird because Amos has a Macbook pro and why am I still so excited over the photo booth thingy. Reason is that he doesn't like me to touch his work stuff and he doesn't like to take photos with me. Playing photo booth alone is never as fun as playing with many!

By 11pm, I am already yawning like no tomorrow. Jo kept preventing me to sleep! TORTURE! We shifted ourselves up to Jo's room at 1am to watch Brides War followed by The Shutter-Hollywood version. Damn funny to see the girls covering themselves with blankies when comes to scary parts! I thought I will be the one screaming like fuck but.. It's not scary lah! Plus I watch the thai version a few times. Numb by it already!

Movies finish at 5 30 in the morning, after some pillow talk and everyone went lalaland by 6.

I woke up at 7 because I couldn't sleep, block nose and menses is so not comfortable!

Home at 9..

What a wonderful super duper night!

THANKS JO! <3

2010-06-17T16:52:00.001+08:00

Remember the stray kitten I picked up from my workplace last Oct?

The adopter update me just now and this is him right now...

Isn't him gorgeous? A little regret giving him away. What to do, My mum disapprove having 3 cats in the house. He's actually the 1st cat that stick to me like a real baby, sleep by my side every night! Jackie don't do that when he was a kitten, Jasper came in as a young adult so don't need to mention lahh. But glad that his owner Callie is giving him good food good environment and tons of love.

I nearly cried out of joy to see him grow so much!

HAPPY!

2010-06-12T12:20:00.002+08:00

Went IT fair with ShuZhi to get her Macbook yesterday after work! Super envy! Crowds crowds crowds. She did mange to get her baby white after screwing the promoters until they speechless. She a devilish customer and angelish friend LOL! When on our way to Pets lover Center, We saw Tong*2 (ShuZhi Bf). I was very shock to see both of them give each other a BIG hug in the public, A BIG BIG one!! haha!

Guess what we had for dinner. A cup of Chocolate Pearl Milk Tea.. ..Pathetic but filling! Got my stuff and we headed home.

I couldn't find the sick orange cat last night and went home disappointingly. =(

But! God Loves me! He appear near dad's lorry this morning!! I hurry fed him with the food I bought last night because I was late for work already! Manage to clean his discharge with wet tissues, people don't know will think that I am abusing him by looking how he struggle and how i FORCE him. LOL!

Now my bag filled will -->

cat food, treats and mineral water not bought to drink but for the cats to drink and clean!

2010-06-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

Amos came to my house to pass me my LONGCHAMP!(FINALLY!) He was late as USUAL. We went NTUC around 9 something to buy some snacks. On our way back home, I saw Michael lying near the playground. I went forward to sayang him a bit while Amos just stood there and watch. BUT it doesn't end here, He eventually follows us all the way to the lift! OMG! Amos blame me for giving Michael attention. =.= So i got Amos to go up 1st and brought some shredded chicken down. I went to the bench and sit, Michael was sitting beside me and had his head tugged in my shirt! SUPER MANJA!! My cats don't even do that loh!

Amos join me later and fed Michael but he doesn't want to eat, maybe he prefer fish more? Amos couldn't resist him and started to adore him like me! haha! After awhile Michael rest himself under our bench.

Then comes AH MAO! She didn't dare to come because Michael was with us. I had to walk to her with some chicken and she ATE! YAY! She ran off after that because SOME people didn't leash their CHH dog and it's kind of chasing AH MAO. =.=

I went back to sit and carry on adoring Michael until I heard a DEEP MEOW. At 1st I thought it was a new stray, so me and Amos went to check it out. To my Surprise IT'S THE PLAZA CAT! Someone must have shifted him here. POOR BOY..

He's sick with eyes discharge and skinny too. He didn't take the chicken I gave. SAD!

Since I came back home, I was damn worried about him! Amos suggest to bring some food and water for him since I am worried. But it was late and regular feeder is feeding thec cats now, just hope he will get a share too... ... =(

2010-06-08T18:13:00.000+08:00

JASPER IS SUPER NAUGHTY! He make his way up to the book shelf just now!! Dad had a hard time getting him down~~ ~ ~

Meeting Helicia later!!

2010-06-06T23:58:00.001+08:00

It's Kor's 25th birthday today! We had a hard time deciding where to eat, it's a Sunday and every where is CROWDED! Went Punggol Plaza with dad to do my GapBuster assignment in the afternoon and saw AH MAO on the way back home, she is a community cat at my area. She is super bubbly, I like her a lot! She don't meows she maos.. So I went back and pack the remaining Fancy Feast I bought to feed Micheal --> the other day for her.

She was rubbing her body daddy's lorry plate, I told him to buy 4D hoping AH MAO will rub some lucks.

We headed down to Turf Club for Buffet at CHONG PANG 2-in1 BBQ STEAMBOAT, it's only 18$/pax. Love it! No crowd & cheap!! I was busying picking food for family, busy busy! Then I saw this uncle keep winking at me. Faint! Fat lady like me also want to SIAN, eye got too many stamps! LOL!

BURP!~

2010-06-04T22:30:00.001+08:00

From Friendster to Facebook to Twitter..
Many quarrels between me and Amos comes from Facebook, and now with newly added Twitter.

It's stupid but from those social networks, I can easily see what kind of person Amos is. It's true. He has many things to hide from me, that is why he NEVER willing to add me as friend. Even though he did(after so many accepting and blocking me), he close his wall so his friend won't sabo him with comments.

Then comes to Twitter. After so much trouble, he finally accept me. And minutes ago, he delete me away after he complain saying I'm a self fish girlfriend this & that.

I'm a sensitive person, little things can blow my mood away the whole day. All his actions to protect his privacy piss me off. Since he loves to hide, then I shall do the same. You can say I'm childish, but I won't let people climb on top of me.

Amos tang, the game has started.. ..

2010-06-04T14:54:00.002+08:00

I am a good daughter..
A good sister..
A good friend..
A good stranger..
But never a good lover..
Because I have a good good boyfriend !
<3

2010-06-03T08:44:00.004+08:00

I started this Korean drama(You're Beautiful) last Saturday and got addicted to it. It wasn't bad but story seems similar to Hana Yori Dango and Hana Kimi. As usual, draggy draggy draggy(Well known in Korean drama).. .. Manage to finish it yesterday.

This guy here -->

Too cute to resist! The only part I cried is the part when he sing the love song with tears to Go Mi-nam on the bus even though he knows she doesn't like him. Aww~ So heart breaking! He's not the main character by the way, but I like his personality.

Actually what attracted me is his lips, I fancy it. Ethan Ruan has that too! Those Qiao Qiao ones are damn.. .. WOO~ Haha!

But throughout the show I was hoping to see the real male Go Mi-nam. To my disappointment, he only shown his face a little and nothing more. =/ Eyeer!

ALRITE!

Meeting the girls today! Hope Every thing turns out well!

2010-05-27T12:25:00.002+08:00

Boss not in yet, I guess he went in the morning. So he maybe back in the afternoon, SHIT!~

Super no mood right now. Suppose to meet up the girls for dinner tonight, was quite looking forward to it but it was CALLED OFF for some reasons.

I don't understand why some people took friendship for granted when they are attached and I don't. I treasure friendship a lot, willingly to try my best to remain it even though they use friends as a back up when their partner is not free. Somehow I feel stupid putting efforts to keep the friendship going when none appreciated. Maybe I should be like them, stick to BF whenever I am free or rather, just slack at home with my cats for good.. .. .. >=(

2010-05-27T09:36:00.003+08:00

TGIT!

Long weekend to many but I have to work on Sat~ur~day~ =.=

Sucks man! Luckily it's only 4 hours short and I always use the time to enjoy air con and drama online. Haha! I will only get to enjoy LONG weekend if the PH falls on Monday instead, but after checking the calender, most fall on Friday. Taking leave on a Saturday is such a waste so a NO NO! Okay lahh~ Just got to bear with it until I'm done with this boring job.

Was planning to take 1/2 day leave today, but boss has to go to some army place to fix the antenna. Most prob he will following the delivery uncle for some deliveries and then go down together. So he will roughly comes in at 11 30 and go off at 1? It's like kinda wasted if I take the 1/2 when I won't be seeing him for that long. HAHA!

Still left with 10 days leaves, need to spend it wisely! ~ ~

Boys' "BOHUA" Theory

2010-05-26T10:10:00.003+08:00

GUYS ' "BOHUA" THEORY

Amos keep saying I'm very BOHUA for months!

The other night he came and sleep over at my house, we had a mini before bed time chat. He told me the story behind the "BOHUA".. .

Some time back, he and his part timers had some "men"s talk during work. . .

Part timer A : "Hey bro, so how good is you girl?"

Amos : "I don't know . ."

Part timer A,B,C . . : "O.O SERIOUS!"

Amos : "Ya. .She's a nun.."

Part timer A,B,C . . : "LOL"

Part timer A. . : " But you buy so many things for her and do so much things for her le!"

Part timer B . : " OMG! 5 years plus and you 2 haven...MYGOD!"

Part timer A : "Comon bro! I didn't buy much stuff for my girl. . .she give it to me like there's no tml sia!"

Amos : "haha. . ."

Part timer C : "So fcuking BOHUA la!"

And this is how it came about. Men Men Men. . All they think is SEX. Haha!

Luckily Amos respect the term of "WAIT TILL MARRIAGE" .

Guys nowadays will just dump you if you don't want to because you DON'T love them. CRAP!

2010-05-25T14:54:00.002+08:00

Usually when boss leave the office around 4 something, and I' ll leave 10 to 15 mins earlier according to the bus arrival time from IRIS. Luckily I didn't choose to yesterday...

Firstly, a parcel was delivered around 5.15.

Secondary, daddy called around 5.20 to offer a ride home.

Lastly boss called after daddy regarding some work stuff.

PHEW!~ kinda like a narrow escape. Haha!

2010-05-22T15:57:00.004+08:00

I'm so in LOVE with this "痛也不说出口的我" by 楊培安. This song is super sad luh, and I repeated this song every night like so many times! Had insomnia lately mahh. Haha!

A 10/10 SONG ! ! (Y)

一切早开始了
一切却还未辉煌
触摸到手指
不代表敲动她心房
我爬到高山的一半
想要回头怎么办
风撼动我的肩膀
汗揪着我的衣裳
谁愿意失败失败再失败
谁高兴期盼期盼再期盼
我是个痛也不会说出口的人
我是个贪心也注定要不到的人
你恋恋过我
就像花依赖树尖
但风轻轻的吹
时候到幸福却枯萎
我是个爱也不会说清楚的人
我是个懦弱也还在拼拼看的人
火熊熊了眼
别太快灰飞湮灭
荣耀若值钱
我不会掉下泪
痛也不说出口的我
不怕掉下泪

2010-05-21T10:00:00.005+08:00

BOOYA!

Man, I'm super bored right now. It's Friday, I don't wanna start to do work so early. LOL

Last week, Helicia asked me out for dinner at Compass Point because her "bibi" was working. I was in a super super slack mood that day but hey, I 'm willing to step out of the house for her. Why? I know she needs a pair of ears, else why wanna meet me? Haha. And there she went, talking her heart out while lighting a numbers of sticks.

It's heart breaking to see her being like this, very sadding. Not that I'm pitying her or what, she choose the path and she got to endure with it, plus she said she didnt regret dumping Jason for Asman. Because she loves Asman more, but the fact is Jason loves her more and she didn't appreciate it. To her, in a relationship it is more important for her to love that somebody rather than other way round.

By listening to her stories, it makes me feel that I'm blessed to the max with the little effort I put in the relationship....

Amos never make negative comments on my look and size. Yes, I do caught him looking at girls some times and he did comment to me that girl looks hot or cute or what ever shit, but he always end the conversation with "but you are more hotter!" And I will go *roll eyes* "yayaya.."

When I cry in the public because I'm upset for small matters, he will goes "OMG! are you crying?" And I'm always acting tough "NO I'M NOT, IT'S THE BLOODY LENS!" He will keep apologies until I am okay.

He never gets his way when we will out because I will always be changing his plan to what I want. He will be mad at me for a few minutes and convince himself that it's my day. When we were out, I will get what I want without even taking out my wallet. (recently just started)

He will always be there to help me to do stuff because he want to do it for me. From making calls to collecting stuff for me. He never fail although the service is slow. Haha, Ops! It's FOC service, so don't complaint!

He allows me to CUT his hair, TRIM his eyebrows when I don't let him touch mine..LOL

And I NEVER had to say SORRY though I'm to blame.

Yes, I understand relationship can never be compared. Asman has his good points too, and I know sometimes Helicia just thinks too much. But I just don't get it when you said you hate him so much but yet willing to stick to him like a super glue. I don't know, perhaps that's LOVE?

LOVE really weights more than friendship when friends are the one who make you more happier?

2010-03-07T13:12:00.001+08:00

Have been tweeting until I didn't have the time to blog..coz tweeting is much easiler and faster to update ppl wads going on..gonna blog soon coz I really need to 发泄！somewhere I can 吐口水..

2010-02-14T12:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY!! =)

2010-02-05T16:23:00.001+08:00

Quotations started coming in, meaning I will have more work to do! Finally don't have to stone in front of the computer till 5 30! But still, I haven switch my mood over yet. Still under slacking mood. =3= boss came in at 3 today, was kinda slack before he came. Got to quickly finish up the quotations so Monday I'll have a good leave with no worries. =)

Weather nowadays was super warm super humid, I have been sleeping late lately, so freaking hot la! But it seems to come to an end? Because it started raining here at kaki bukit. Ah~ smell of the rain...The wind is awesome!!

Well well..yesterday was kinda rush. Getting daddy a new phone was never easy.Phone with keypad are limited, he wants $0 phone yet so picky. I wanna get him E66 or E52 but he said need money leh. Sigh! I'm paying why he bother. LOL but then, hello shop doesn't carry them. So end up waste of trip.

Gonna do phone hunting tomorrow when meeting Kitty. Why must I settle this kinda of stuff every time, I'm not the eldest you know. Not fair! Give me little attention when I was a child and now I need to do all these troublesome things for the family! =\

2010-02-05T09:09:00.005+08:00

Was listening to radio FM yesterday when the DJ was introducing something new, it's called SLEEP SUIT. She said the suit allow us to sleep anyway anyhow. I find it interesting and went to google it. I was going LOL when I saw the pictures, boss was sitting beside me so I just had to tahan the laughter loh!

Definitely will try if Singapore has it. =)

Taking leave on Monday, need to clean my room, it's full of fur!~~

2010-02-03T11:18:00.003+08:00

Suppose to be happy yesterday but it was disappointing at the end of the day. Why? STUPID BUS was late, it delay my time. Ended Amos reach amk earlier then me and start scolding me the F word continuously because I was late. Come on lah, he's late most of the time. Wait for me for awhile will die is it?! My friend reach on time as well, so I ask amos the help me do the collection, he nag again.. =3= HE AGREE TO COLLECT FOE ME YESTERDAY AFTERNOON AT WOODLAND but he change his plans, I seriously wonder why he plan things and kept changing. What's the point to plan then? After that he complained again! Say why I so slow, he was carrying 2 laptops, very heavy. Is it my fault? He should blame his work for the additional laptop that he need to send for repair. After I reach, We went Sumo House for dinner. The food wasn't as nice as that time when manda brought us there. Maybe the person I'm eating with spoil the taste of food. =/ He wanted me to pay him back the lens money, he said until I won't fucking pay him back! I got so mad I QUEUE the LONG QUEUE to withdraw the 27 BUCKS! He was like never mind la, next time then pay also can. WHATEVER SHIT LA! We went home after that, suppose to do shopping but he wanted to go home because he was over loaded with laptop. Geez.. Cabbed home because MAJESTY wanted to! See how he doesn't want to spend time with me, still got the cheek to say I don't want to meet him! Bull shit! Then here come this STUPID driver, don't know the way to RIVERVALE DRIVE! He drove us to compass point and we got to direct him to my house, ONE BIG FUCKING ROUND!GOD! Amos tried to talk to me in the cab or should I say NAG at me. He actually nag more than me but he didn't realize he is the master of NAG! So my face was black throughout the trip home. Reach home, mummy daddy went to their cousin's wife wake. Saw kor eating maggie mee. =3= Lucky I bought takoyaki for them. When i saw Jackie, i got damn shock to see his nose had a cut! I don't know how he injured himself or Jasper bullied him. He seems emo last night. =( Heartache...

After so many things happen, it's not a happy day after all...=(

fuck it la!

2010-02-02T16:14:00.001+08:00

Today seems good. The company which I sign up as mystery shopper for fun called and gave me an assignment to do tml. At first I was puzzeled when the person spoke to me because her English is very de Angmo, when she mention mystery shopper I then oh~ haha..usually is we shopper need to log in to search for assigment ourselves but don't know why she called me personally. Oh well, free food still getting pay, why not. =)

Then a friend of mine called me, she said she will be transfering the $170 she owed me a year back tonight. Wow~ I feel so much lighter in the heart.

Later I'm going to amk hub to meet my another friend to collect my contact lens. Woot~ green and purple lens. Now now, who still won't be able to see I am wearing lens huh. Haha..

After collecting, will be having dinner with Amos tang. Yup, finally have some quality time to date! You see, he dated his work more. Now I own some precious time of his, I got to make his wallet cry for hunger. =)

I am smiling while blogging for the first time =)))

Cheers!!!

2010-02-01T18:49:00.001+08:00

Mummy said she saw jackie lying OUTSIDE the house and jasper walking around OUTSIDE the house..hopefully they didn't disturb any of our neighbour, if they do and complains will made. It's the end =( luckily jasper didn't go far this time. When the cats saw mummy, they ran to her meowing away and rush back home when the door opens. They must had climb all the way up to the top window panel of my parent room, mummy forgotten to close it. Sigh! One more thing added to my worried list. Argh!!! Hope everything will be alright!!

2010-02-01T11:34:00.003+08:00

Was 20 minutes late today, my god! thanks to the army truck driving lesson that hold back the whole road of cars =/ .. not that I wasn't late before, but boss was early today. Caught red-handed. =3= he didn't say anything but I know he mind. Whatever.

So when I arrived to work, he was packing to go for delivery of goods. On the desk, there is a confirmation letter form our tenant's company and boss remark on the paper asking me to type it out with changes to be made, company name lah..employee name lah...blah blah blah.. But the letter stated 14 days annual leaves and 7 days sick leaves, does this mean he is going to take my advice on increasing the annual leaves? Will double confirm with him when he is back. But then, i thought MOM sick leave was 14? Whatever.. because I won't be using much of it anyway, 7 days is well enough. I have doctor-phobia you see, so I make myself visit the doctor unless I am REALLY SICK!

2010-01-31T13:06:00.002+08:00

Super bored right now, i took 3 serving of medicine at a goal last night and it work well. Feeling better already, YES! Feeling tired but couldn't get myself to sleep.

Yesterday went down town east to book the free stay, we manage to have it on April 23rd to 25th that is the nearest weekend to my birthday. We are given a choice for a 2 stories chalet at down town east but we turn down and taken the 1 story at pasir ris, reason being it is easier to smuggle the 2 big cats in. hohoho!~ Then daddy fetch us to giant at tampines. MY GOD! it was VERY crowded. damn scary! Gotten my 1st FBT shorts, they have my size wor. ahaha! =)

2010-01-29T09:55:00.002+08:00

Still down with flu! ARGH!! Super tired, overdose my medicine last night again...Damn sleepy... YAWN~ the medicine no longer work on me, it only relief me during the sleep.. =C

This week went by quite fast sia, it's Friday with a blink of an eye. Next week is the start of February and CNY in 2 weeks. Since ah bu died, CNY seems meaningless to me. I hate CNY, maybe I have grown up, maybe not. I dislike family gathering because my brothers and I never fit in. 3 of us always sit at a corner or what and watch TV while a group of them sitting at the table chatting away. And of course, I DON'T WANT to see that PU BO face. I hope she wont be coming for the CNY gathering, you are not welcome BITCH!

7 more hours more..zZzZzZ

2010-01-28T12:12:00.002+08:00

I am still sick! Overdose my flu medicines and now I feel ‘light’. The feeling is great; think I am addicted to it. LOL! We didn’t talk lately because he is BUSY with his work. So he doesn’t know I am sick. Sadding!

Today Ah tingg show me some job classified because she wants to change her job. As I read the job scope, it sounds very familiar. Hey! That’s what I am doing everyday at work what! LOL! So I am not an admin assistant after all, I am a Purchasing Assistant! Feel much better; at least I am not in the lower job position. =) And I can switch job easier. But still, I am not happy about my pay and benefits boss is giving. =( The only thing I like about the job is “stress-LESS” =/

Anyway happy 62 months to you fucker!

2010-01-27T09:05:00.002+08:00

Having flu. Sigh... Because of it, I slept late last night. Stupid flu, now I feel sick and tired. =3=

Yesterday went crocodile warehouse sales and got daddy 2 long sleeve shirt and 3 boxes of underwear. LOL! got a long sleeve shirt for kor as well and there goes my 71 bucks. =C
Unfortunately, Kor's shirt is a little tight due to the slim cutting. Get ah tingg to change for me since she work at the building. So troublesome loh.....

I AM FUCKING SLEEPY!!!

2010-01-25T09:00:00.002+08:00

I had a dream. I dream of having a caring, rich, loving boyfriend who wants me to marry him. I don't know who is him but he does look kinda handsome. =) Feeling really good!~ How I wish I ll never need to wake up from the dream....

Love in those romance drama is never gonna happen in the real world, but who say it wont appear in dreams... =)

2010-01-19T10:19:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i stop taking dinner. I gain 5kg since working in the office! Sit, sit sit, late lunch at 3.30 everyday then dinner usually start at 7 30. Definitely will fat loh.

Still remember i was at my highest peak of 89kg when i was in secondary 3. With determination, during the 1 month holiday, I lose 11 KG. WOW? HOW? 2 pieces bread with tuna filling for breakfast, lunch and dinner. drinks lots of ice water when hungry. Badminton like mad with helicia almost everyday, she also benefit from it i guess...it's how.. then i manage to cut down my weight bit by bit and weight 70kg by the end of secondary 4.

The nightmare then begain, i met amos and all my effort are gone...=C

I must find back my determination i use to have...

'The faster i slim down the sooner i ll get to enjoy my life to the fullest!' That's what I tell myself everyday.

fighting fighting fighting!!!

2010-01-18T15:07:00.001+08:00

I am getting more and more unhappy day by day. My life is kinda screw up. In the past, happy was so easy to achieve but now, it seems impossible? I don't know.. Yes I really don't. Don't know what I need to do to make myself happy. Perhaps my happy has expired...

2010-01-18T15:00:00.001+08:00

Watch Marley & Me the second time, still make me cry like a baby. Unable to finish the show because the last part is too sadding. T.T

2010-01-10T13:58:00.003+08:00

Listening to my all time favorite album.

I had this album in cassette form. CD was expensive then? I don't know, because I got it when I was 6. HAHA! Still remember mummy use my Arron poster as a cover for the cabinet rack and i got so mad at her! Song no 1. 梦难留 is the best of the best! My favorite of the favorite. U gotta listen! Song 2..3...4..5...Aiyah! Might as well try listening to the whole album. ^.^ NICE!

Was at Orchard with Kitty yesterday, had Xin Wang for lunch @ Ion and coffee bean @ Somerset 313. woots...Pamper myself too much this week because Friday was NY NY for dinner @ Jurong Point with amos. Gonna ill-treat myself next week to balance.

Speaking of amos, he pissed me off loh! Went we were out on friday, he kept criticizing me to the max. Until I shout at him in the public then he stop. So not gentleman! He said he was joking. Okay, 1 or 2 is fine but combo criticism is too much for a girl okay!

2010-01-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

Suddenly I remembered the MOE days, so i decided to check if they really use the flash apps i create during SIP. and they DID!!

http://xuele.edumall.sg/xuele/slot/u107/Sec/index2.htm

Second button under secondary 1 & 2...i did the 1st 4 on the left row. It is ugly, but hey I am a noob in flash you know. HAHA!!

KAELING 2010 resolution...

1) LOSE 10KG (starting to feel my tummy resting on my thights when sitting down..disgusting!)
2)FINISH AT LEAST 5 BOOKS (brush up my horrible vegetable Singlish!)
3)DON'T JUST AIM FOR HAPPINESS, AIM FOR SUCCESS! (never be happy without success)
4)NEVER BE TOO KIND! except to stray animals (always the one who lose out)
5)EARN MORE MONEY! (gonna say goodbye to stupid fucking low pay!)
6)LEARN AT LEAST 1 NEW SKILL! ( improve improve improve!)

6 is enough, all the above comes to one conclusion..

I WANT TO BE ONE SUCCESSFUL BITCH!

Yea, the reason I'm not happy recently is because I find myself useless.

Gonna buck up and live to the fullest!

2010-01-03T13:58:00.001+08:00

Watch Marley & Me the second time, still make me cry like a baby. Unable to finish the show because the last part is too sadding. T.T

2010-01-03T08:53:00.004+08:00

Another year had past...

HAPPY NEW YEAR...

This year's countdown cum birthday celebration for the 3 jan babies was at Jo's house, majong, snacks, tv and laughter. Enjoyed it but tiring. Unlike the others, i went up to Jo's room to take a nap around 4am while the others still awake. AHAHA! i reached home around 7 30, bathe, breakfast routine for my 2 kitties, 2 terrapins and 8 goldfishes and off to wonderland. Jackie was sleeping beside me all along the whole session, so sweet >.<>

60% of new year i spent sleeping. =.=

I suddenly find myself a boring person compare to people that are around my age. I love staying at home when there's no work. Even bffs and bf ask me out, I'll need to actually persuade myself, push myself to get out of the house. I am ZAI... YES! oh well, Home is the most comfy place ever!

Amos collected his IPhone 3GS yesterday, by right he said he is coming my house, but he kinda forgotten about it and happily went home to fix his phone up with apps. I couldn't be bothered because he come also nothing to do, might as well don't come, didn't expect he will fulfill his words in the 1st place. He said he wanted to give me the iPhone but i must sell away my HTC, I guess he knew i won't so ended up I am not taking the IPhone, no big deal what.....

2009-12-29T15:43:00.001+08:00

I had decided to quit last night before I slept. I dreamt of grandma lying on the bed talking to me, she said "工要好好作＂is she telling me something or it's just because I miss her too much...

2009-12-28T21:34:00.001+08:00

Why I am always unhappy? Gonna have depression soon if I keep feeling like this. Seriuosly...

2009-12-28T19:04:00.001+08:00

Fuck!! I finally open up my golden mouth to the boss regarding my pay and annual leaves. He said 7 days annual leave, I told him most company gives 12 to 14, he got a shock as I was lying to him. I ask him to go check if he didn't believe me, he said he will. Sigh..when talking about the increasememt of pay, he only will plus a 100 first because he said my performance still not to standard, and will increase if I improve. I was like what?!! 1400 still very low you see, I am a diploma holder, should get at least 1.5 1.6k okay!! So I talk my heart out until I cry, saying all my friends got higher pay than me and my cousins say ask me why I work with this kinda pay. He told me never to compare with others because it will make my life harder, why not work harder, let him see the result and get the pay increase faster. He kept asking me go for further studies and stuff. He just don't get what I mean. I want my freaking pay to go up! Old man always talk out of track.

By thinking of it, yes my performance wasn't very good, what boss said is true also but when something bothers me and not solve, I won't step out of the situation u see. So what if I am happy about the work. Still I got a problem with the pay, I won't be happy either. Maybe...I ll quit my job...

2009-12-26T18:07:00.001+08:00

Merry Xmas!!

Work finish at 12 30 on eve.. Went down to Siglap to buy toy for my cats but it's out of stock!!!! damn it..den travel to ikea to get wine glass for Xmas dinner...I was tempted to buy a lot of stuff at ikea..I waited for mum and kor to join me a hour later...they kept telling me no need no need..end up only bought the glass for wine.sigh!! Amos bought two bottles of red and white wine...surprisingly we ate at 2 am..coz little bro came home from work late..the turkey and rosted beef were delicious!! But the wine were...eeee...I drank only 1/2 a cup and my cheast felt the heat already..not nice...

Yesterday Amos and I went vivo shopping..got the gold plated Havanas I wanted..$59 sia..expensive...He is paying so nvm..LOL..we had thai express for dinner..I wanted to eat fast food but he insisted in resturant..say we always eat fast food..but I haven had one for ages...-_- so make it snap snap..empty empty Thai express..still have many things to buy but too crowded..no mood to squeeze..Amos said I can buy next time coz I blink my eyes at him..ahaha...

Worn my contact lens yesterday..wow!! The effect was great!! Now I know why ppl wear it...Amos got electriced by them!! Woot!!!

2009-12-19T16:49:00.001+08:00

Someone in ubi peel off a cat's tail skin and left only the tail bone. I thought he will survive after the care giver of that area brought him to the vet..but he didn't make it..he died during the surgery this morning...man it was dishearten to hear it...I cant believe human are so sick! How could this be done to little harmless animals...seriously one day the person who had done this will get what he/she deserve!!! Fuck you!!

2009-12-18T16:27:00.001+08:00

Whenever I stated to have faith in our relationship. You will always vanish it away...

2009-12-14T17:14:00.003+08:00

Took off today, it's grandma's 1st year death anniversary. So we invited the monk to chant. It reminds me of the days in grandma's wake. Heart turn sour. Time fly really fast. Ah..all the cousins didn't attend, only aunties and uncle, for heaven sake, that bitch never come =)

My smallest auntie didn't help out in burning of those $$ because she worn contact lens. I was surprise! She said she already worn them before marriage! Was like 30 years ago can?!! I didn't realize contact lens was invented when large glasses were worn. Ahaha! I was told a pair of contact lens last time cost $300++!!!! She's damn rich can! LOL!

2009-12-14T00:10:00.001+08:00

Word of the day "OMG". All I can say is WOW WOW WOW!!!

After tonight, I guess Amos is right, I am too traditional. =\ I have to follow the rules I set for myself. Very hard to change, Amos has to bear with it lo!!! =P

2009-12-13T23:58:00.001+08:00

Sigh! I'm bored.

2009-12-10T21:36:00.001+08:00

#*%¥$@& to animal abuser! I curse you!!!

2009-12-08T21:01:00.001+08:00

Who should I believe? Seriously it is none of my business. What the hack...

2009-12-08T08:51:00.002+08:00

What is the matter now? You are old already yet only think of money. What ever it is, I hope you will actually think what's more important, family or money. You think you deserve the gold bangle of grandma? After since my dad insist not to give you, you don't even bother to come pay respect to her. Every time when grandma was in hospital, you kept telling everyone she couldn't make it, just like you want her to die faster. Daughter-in-law like you, is it a revenge from God to grandma? If you deserve the gold bangle then my mum deserve more than that. Why do you make people hate you so much. I respect you as my auntie but why are you behaving such way, i look down on you. I hope we won't see each other often, get out of my face.

2009-12-07T22:15:00.001+08:00

You don't know he's still cares about you even though you trash his love into the bin. My heart ache for this little innocent boy.

Staring at the contact lens now, don't know how to put them on. I don't even dare to. Haha..

2009-12-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

Went bugis with andrea in the afternoon to collect my contact lens. Chat a little. She's now working at woodland, a home office located few blocks from her house, envy loh. LOL! This conversation brought me back to work, sianed. Last time before I step into working society, I always thought of getting a normal admin job with 1.5k a month is good enough. Den when I graduate with no job, I brought down my standard to 1.3k. Now I got a job with 1.3k for a start plus it is not stressful at all, I find the pay low, find the job boring. I want high pay, I want exciting jobscope. But I don't know where to start. Further study? Of course! But what? I don't know. I don't have a goal, how to start. Kor want to study also, so maybe let him study first.. Because he's 24 already, I am only 21. Somemore he's a guy, more important mah. Sigh... Life sucks without a goal!!

2009-12-06T22:06:00.001+08:00

2009-12-05T16:40:00.001+08:00

Cousins' grandpa who we also call him ah gong died last night. Dad just release the news to us. The last time I saw him was Chinese new year, we were at the association celebrating. His condition was okay then, eating and drinking happily. And now, he's gone, so sudden. RIP ah gong.

speaking about that, grandma was gone for a year already, time fly so fast.I still dream of her every now and then. Really miss her a lot. ...

2009-12-05T12:10:00.000+08:00

i wanna get my hands on this book but don't know Singapore sell it not. Watch on OKTO the other day, damn touching.

Description:

An inspiring true story of a life devoted to helping Downs children. Alex Bell is a 53 year old woman who lives in Swinton, on the outskirts of Manchester. She is feisty, funny with a real firecracker of a personality. She has needed that strength of character for Alex is the adoptive mother of 8 children with Downs Syndrome or other disabilities, children who some parts of society would perhaps prefer to forget. Age 28 and unmarried, Alex adopted her first Downs child, Matthew - and became one of the first people in the UK to be approved for adoption as a single woman. Amazingly, she went on to take eight more children under her wing, Simon, Adrian, Nathan, Andrew, Chloe, Tom, Emily and Callum. Some had been through a frustratingly bureaucratic care system, or moved from one foster parent to another. It sometimes seemed an impossible challenge, but Alex was determined to give these children stability, love and the best life possible. With her down-to-earth charm, Alex also brings together the families often torn apart by Downs. She encourages the birth families to get together - some of whom have sadly turned their backs on their son or daughter, but others have now long been happily involved in their children's lives. The nine children each have unique, sometimes heartbreaking stories, but they are also the most joyful, compelling and fascinating children you're ever likely to meet: / Happy-to-lucky Matthew, 24, who takes people on tours of Man. Utd - the only Downs child to be given such a privileged position, and testament to Alex's care / Adrian, the family timekeeper and numbers wiz, as if born with a clock inside his brain / Chloe, the lovable, mischievous scamp known as Little Miss Dynamite Prepare to be amazed, moved and entranced by this powerful true story that will change the way we all look at disabilities. Alex believes special needs children are 'gifts', and spending any time with her it becomes obvious that she also has a very special gift of her own.

2009-12-04T23:16:00.001+08:00

I feel so bad even though I am not the one who hurt his heart. Kept telling myself its none of my business so please stop thinking about it. There is no right or wrong in love, howerever i disagree to what she is doing now. Yes I understand he neglected her in the first place, but why not give him a chance to realise that before she slam the bad news straight in his face. The worse part is, when he is crying and heart is bleeding, she is holding another guy's hand in school. Yes, it involve a 3rd party. She's my friend so I will respect and support her decision, if not I will call her slug. No offence. I try to think of a positive point that is the guy didn't cherish her and lead to this, he's also to be blame as well. School is full of attraction, with a beautiful girlfriend, it's very important to make her attached so to kill the bees yea? Shall made this a lesson learnt to him to treasure his future girlfriend more. As for her? She deserve the best because she was hurt before for so many times. You go girl! Best of luck to you! Love love! =)

2009-12-02T16:19:00.001+08:00

It happen again, he promise to give me the attention I need but he didn't contact me since Monday. He told me the other day someone mention to him "never give up career for relationship", he finds it true. But what if you will over stress and need a shoulder to cry or a pair of ears to listen to you, with the situation of Amos, he can find no one but me. But still he didn't treasure me much. He told me how good his boss lisa is, she's just like a mother to him. Does this means she's more important than me? I am not jealous, just wonder how Amos's mind works. I just couldn't undertand he's thoughs. I don't understand him day by day. He's a piece of paper, more and more scribbles on him, too complicated to understand. Don't even want to bother, because when you finally got him, he changes again, totally no point.

There's no love in this relationship anymore, we just need each other to complete our task in life, which is married and have a family. It's life.

2009-12-01T22:46:00.001+08:00

I guess I am behaving like a child, maybe wasn't totally his fault. He's planning future well. He is working hard. doing event job, well can also say he is too having more fun there more den being with me. And I? Still happy go lucky. When he told me about what he wants in life his dreams, I was amaze,I felt so useless, where is my goal of life? What do I want? ... Where will I stand 10 years down the road ...

2009-11-08T12:07:00.000+08:00

After getting my 1st pay, I gave some to ma and pa, pay phone bill which i accumulate for 3 months. Then I found out that I still have so money to spend. I decide to get ma a KF 350 as I mention to her long time ago, that this phone suits her a lot. So I got the phone yesterday and secretly switch her Nokia 7390 PINK to KF 350 PINK. LOL . She didn't notice until night when she was searching for her phone to set alarm. When she took out the phone from pouch and..."A? This phone is kailing de mah? where is my phone?" I smile to her. Then she kept nagging that I waste money, the previous phone only use a year and a half, still good why change. HELLO! you said the battery got problem and it cause problem for us to contact you!! "Buy you things still kanna nag, what;'s the point!" She THEN finally stop the nag and gave me a kiss.

Awww... >.<

2009-11-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

1 month without you entering my life, the feeling is kinda great. I didn't expect things will turn out so perfect without you. Without you messing up my life, I finally found the meaningful inside instead of miserable. Even air turn more fresher. So what if my phone become quieter, at least my life is more peaceful. Lonely? Yes sometimes but jackie and jasper entertain me better than you do.

Our distance is no longer measurable. We are totally out of each other's world. Even stranger on the road is closer to me than you do. You have transform to someone I totally don't know, someone i wish I won't get to know. Fate isfooling us around, maybe it is time to stop....

寂寞好了

拼命的上網悶壞的胸口讓我想大聲的吶喊
我努力不放你冷淡你讓分手就這樣
我連做夢也感覺受傷一年過了還是一天計算著慌張
計程車上的音響我們最愛的情歌
這一刻卻重重擊破思念的心臟

夜深了我怎麼辦寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜想她念她恨她
一個人你害怕嗎細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開多假多假多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔心放空了寂寞好了

堅強外表下我脆弱情人節開始失常
別人慶祝我卻很失落秋天過了冬天漫長…
歡愉而感傷我們天真的勇敢我們追求的夢想
捨不得也只能收藏旅行的時光

夜深了我怎麼辦寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜想她念她恨她
一個人你害怕嗎細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開多假多假多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔心放空了寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
愛多甜傷多痛都釋放

夜深了我怎麼辦寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜想她念她恨她
一個人你害怕嗎細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開多假多假多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔沒有了心放空了寂寞好了

2009-11-01T13:32:00.000+08:00

Farewell Dulex!
Be a good Horlick to your new mommy!!
big brothers will miss you!

2009-07-23T17:36:00.001+08:00

I am stupid so dumb!
Believe that our relationship is strong after what we had been through for all this years..
Believe that it was my fault that all this happen..
Believe that you still love me and care about this relationship...
Believe that you will come to me and want us to start a new..
I sent you smses telling you I am sorry..
Cried when I think of the past..
Feel bad that I neglected your feeling..
Blame myself for being unreasonable..
But..
Is all this really needed??
NO...
You can still continue you plan in celebrating your birthday with your friends..
Your phone is off..
And you didn't even inform me..
Are you really that happy without me?
Are you enjoying the moment without me?
Are you eating well and sleeping well without me?
YES!!
You are a heartless crap!!
You didn't how hard I suck up my tears in the train when I know you went ahead with your plan happily and dump me here all alone..
Well..
I blame myself..
No one but myself..
I HATE U!!!

2009-06-25T07:31:00.000+08:00

went home alone today..

because all work full..

raining the whole day..

ah ting and me were wet when we went to work..

thanks to my little umbrella..

okay..

what i want to say is when i was at the bridge and i heard a very loud BANG!...

i see nothing and carry on my way to the train...

amos called me...

so i went to a corner to talk...

and i saw this..

damn shock!..
lucky the truck flip the other side..
if not don't know how the driver will be..
he is fine...
able to climb out and call..
thank god!

2009-06-23T02:59:00.000+08:00

what a tiring day..

was out around 11 30am..

meet up ting and suki and head down to cityhall...

after that meet deqi, renjie and sbltk ..

walk our way to marina square to meet martin and sufang...

then the girls went shopping a little to decide what do next..

ended up in yaki yuki for buffet..

martin the man treat all of us...

a big THANK YOU!

we were separated into 2 tables due to too many of us..

6 of us aka super 38 ladies were sitting together..

and the rest of the 3 guys shared one..

we eat and talk..

talk and laugh..

sufang feel hot after the food..

lol..so..

ice cream time!

suddenly suki become emo...

and she started to go mad after she had her durian ice cream..

she bully..

and bully...

and bully..

after buffet..

andy and xuan yu join us for part 2..

minds cafe..

and we were already half dead...

play too harsh during buffet..

but suki still carry on with her bully...

haha..

we stay until 11 something..

den train home..

SO FUN..

SO SWEET..

SO...

SO TIRING!!

haha..

2009-06-22T14:19:00.000+08:00

TO MR SUPER F**KER VISITOR..

i can understand you are not educated..that is why you shouted and curse my mum...i will forgive you because you are different..lack of brain is one of them..well still i will curse you that you or your child will get affected by H1N1 because you are an unreasonable person who do not think..ops...you got no brain...sorry...or maybe you are treated like a dog in work so you bark so loudly in the public...maybe i will sponsor you with breathe mints because you mouth is so stinky..or sponsor you a pig brain for transplant..it will be better than not owning a brian..oh..nevermind...i will give you a great idea to solve all that..which is just go and bang on the wall and DIE!...

cheers!! =)

2009-06-20T14:17:00.000+08:00

T_T

I LOST MY EZLINK CARD WITH 17 DOLLARS INSIDE!!

WTF!!

2009-06-19T14:41:00.000+08:00

OFF DAY..

my threadless are here!!

cold war with amos the other time because he didn't order of me...

LOL...

he paid for all 7 of them..

thank you!!

went collect with baowen...

after that went home to prepare and meet amos around 6 30..

damn long didn't go out together..

went marina square..

to seek for helicia's present..

amos bring me to cafe cartel for dinner..

took pictures of the food..
but forget to take pictures of us..
LOL..
went DP to shop and get myself 3 plain tops...
carry on shopping for helicia's present..
but found nothing...
ah~

2009-06-17T16:33:00.000+08:00

work and work and work my time away....

and most of the money was given to my dad to pay bills...

was reading both manda and cia's blog saying about the distance between us has a distance a part..

to me it is still the same..

just that time has TEMPORARY separate us for the time being for our own future yea?

manda waiting for her examination for her future ..

cia is studying for her future..

i am working part time waiting a job for the future..

as time past...

all of us have a full time job..

everything will be back to normal..

just like the days we were in school..

hanging out when there is free time...

i know we still care for each other by reading blog yea?

so...

don't emo girls..

cheers..

oh...forgot to unlock jackie out of my room..

1 hour already le!

shit!

2009-06-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY TO KOR KOR!!

Wee!~

2009-05-29T12:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 56th months to AMOS!!

thanks for the food..

2009-05-23T18:41:00.000+08:00

BANG!~Jackie went missing in the evening when he jump out the door gap...
mummy was watching tv in the living when she thought jackie was sleeping soundly in the kitchen..
i was only inform after i came home from work..
it was like late night 11 o'clock..
i rush down to search but no sight of him...
i cried..
worried..
mummy felt bad when she see me cry until so badly..
but i didn't blame her..
not her fault..
then i called amos crying on the phone..
so he went looking for Jackie in the night..
using his keys to make noise and calling his name..
he got replied!..
Jackie's bell!!..
he rush and found Jackie under the pavement hiding..
i couldn't sleep..
hoping to hear voice from other apartment..
that they might find Jackie and kept him in their house..
suddenly i heard daddy talking...
"Zao Dao Jackie Le Ah?"
i ran out the room..
saw Jackie running to me..
GOD!!
i was so relief...
he was dirty and hungry...
thanks amos for finding Jackie..
thanks a million!..

what a day...
causeway point was on fire and everyone were ask to leave the building...
1 hour of freedom from work...

so shiok!..

2009-05-20T10:10:00.000+08:00

GRADUATION DAY!!

3 years just gone with a blow of wind..

will miss the fun..

and forget the tough..

haha..

2009-05-19T11:33:00.000+08:00

The war between me and amos has ended after 15 days of cold treatment
my award is carl's junior for supper..
~.~V

2009-05-15T11:15:00.000+08:00

Was reading manda's blog...
can truly understand her feeling..
life is so fragile that no one can get hold of it..
ah bu leave us last year just like that..
still remember the day before she died...
she was using all her might to keep her eyes open to see us..
i regret not staying over to look after her...
i know she couldn't bear to leave us but the time was up..
she got to go...
to company ah gong in heaven..
i hope she is happy...
with no pain and suffer...
till now..
i still cry when i think back then..
because she's still living inside me..ah bu's last birthday celebration 1 week before she 's gone..

hope manada's ah ma will recover soon..
god please bao you her...

2009-05-14T02:01:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder, why life is like that and not the way we want.
oh well.
having cold war with Amos for a week plus.
didn't answer his calls and smses.
during these period, i got myself busy working and taking care of my cat.
until yesterday, when i was on my way to work.
i realise, my life is getting use to not having him in my life.
i guess i don't need him anymore, he has slowly walking out of my life.
he is definitely not my Mr.right.
from the day he didn't turn up for my grandma's wake to show his last respect because of his busy work at IT show.
i know he show no care and respect to me and my family.
he is just a self-centered person with do whatever he likes and think it is right.
but he will never sit down and slot out his bad and change himself.
he will always push all the faults to me and i will become the one who started it.
yes, i admit he is the one who always say sorry.
but so what?
he doesn't change and the problem come again and again.
together for almost 5 years, he is getting worse.
he said he changed, but not to the good side.
spent money like water, speak fluent lies but never had a perfect full stop.
so many unpaid bills when he has an income.
i see no future in him.
he is just wasting his time away.
i guess is because of his broken family and a rich mom made him this way.
we live so near but it has been more than a week i last contact him and he doesn't even bother to come up my house to see if everything is alright.
he is still able to sleep soundly and work with laughter.
i will never end the war like last time.
my determination is strong this time round.
will see who is the boss.
the victory is standing just next to me.
i know.

happy birthday little baowen!